Start of Summer

Well it's officially summer vacation! Today was a day of good news, after much anticipation and waiting, I finally got my job back. The weird part was I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be. I have been waiting and waiting and waiting for this day but now that it has come I just don't know anymore. I have been applying and interviewing for other positions and I thought maybe God wanted me to be somewhere else. Maybe He still does.... I feel lost at this point, not knowing how I can trust more in the Lord and his plan for me. As humans we want to take things into our own hands finding the quickest answer and resolution and avoiding hurt and pain the best we can. However, this is not how God has intended it for us. He wants us to trust in his ultimate plan and keep on living for his glory. As I read Isaiah 50:10-11 I know I need to fear the Lord and obey him but to rely on him for everything that's where it becomes more tricky. I need to surrender it all to God but as we surrender it all that means it's no longer ours to have or control. Ultimately, that's what Jesus has called us Christians to do. Give it ALL up, just as he did for us on the cross. The greatest joys and rewards will only come when we totally do give it all up. I started actually giving some rights up this year which in turn brought upon some more difficult circumstances but as I continue to trust in the his faithfulness I will show joy. I must depend of his help and not on my own logic or words of others.